I wrote this poem when I was 16. Although I don't recall exactly what this poem was reflecting around in my life, I find it very ironic that it fits more of my life now. As a writer who keeps everything I put on paper it's funny to have this trail of my past. What is even more comical, is that at 16 I thought I knew what life obstacles were. How many times have you told yourself, "If I only knew then what I know now." Enjoy.
*To anyone that has had cancer leech into their lives... Chin up loves, this is only an obstacle. One you overcome.
Obstacles
January 15,
2004
I feel as
if I'm drowning in an ocean of my life
The waves have washed my happiness a million miles out of sight.
No matter
where the water flows I find myself plunging deeper
And every
time my bubble bursts I grow a little weaker
I feel as
if I'm tumbling down a mountain of my life
Each step I
take leads to a place
Filled with
hopelessness and strife.
But when I
drift away at night, and submerge myself in a dream
The sea is
calm, the waves roll gently, and I feel like a queen.
My attitude
is bright and my heart swells with pride
I lift a
load off my back and set reality aside.
Constantly
I worry that the hills will be too steep
And every time
I trip or slip, I see failure and defeat.
But when I
tuck myself into a heavenly slumber
The land is
flat
The slopes
are smooth
And the
world itself is a wonder.
I
pleasantly skip across open fields,
And let the
winds sweep through my hair
How grand
is it to dance in a dream
Though my
real life is waiting somewhere
Life is a
twisted obstacle course
I hurdle
through challenges
And feel joy
and remorse.
My only escape
is seen, through closed eyes
And the
second they open, my fantasy dies.
